I don’t like it from behind. OK, let me clarify that. I don’t like it when my knees are on the ground while my butt faces up the sky. I only do that when I’m having a deeper conversation with God.
They call it doggie. I don’t know how a dog’s thing became a thing in the human world but I don’t like it. You can give me the world and ask me to do it for you and I’ll give your world back to you. It’s better a village than a world that comes with doggie.
Two reasons; one, it goes too deep until it begins to hurt. I should enjoy it. I don’t have to feel the pain for someone else’s pleasure, so no. I won’t do it.
Two, I usually fart in that position and the embarrassing thing is, I’m not able to control it. It just comes when it wants to come and it takes away the little fun I have left in the action. The last guy I reluctantly agreed to do that for made me lose all the confidence I had left in that position.
In the middle of the act, he told me, “Adɛn, wo pɛ sɛ wo blasti my yinky off anaa? Can’t you hold it?” The embarrassment went so deep, I fell on the bed and refused to do it again. That day I said it in my head, “Never again.”
So I’m no longer interested in that position or anything that comes with it. It belongs to dogs so dogs should enjoy it.
But here I am with this guy whose only aim during shuperu is to make me give him that position. He has begged. He has brought gifts. He has taken me out on a vacation to discuss why I won’t give him that position during shuperu. I’ve always maintained, “I’m not comfortable. It hits where it’s not supposed to hit and it brings me this sharp pain that I don’t want to experience again.”
His only solution has been; “I promise you, I won’t push it far. It will be just around here.”
Sometimes I want to do it for him just once but I know guys. They don’t know “just once.” You do it once and all of a sudden, they want it every day. I’m not ready to do it so there’s trouble.
One day, he dressed up without doing it because I won’t give him doggie. He told me, “You’ll push a man to cheat and later call him a bad man. What’s doggie that a woman like you can’t give? Go and see how small-small girls are using doggie to take people’s husbands. You’re just selfish, I must tell you.”
So he has started talking to a girl. He doesn’t hide it. He’ll do a video call in my presence. The girl will call him sweetheart. He’ll respond gleefully while looking at my face.
I’m hurting.
He does good things for me. Emotionally we were connected but lately, he’s withdrawn. I don’t even remember the last time he touched me but this is a guy who wanted it every day.
It’s sad that something this small should break something as big as our relationship. I don’t intend to succumb to his pressure to do what doesn’t give me peace but my question is, what’s the alternative I can explore with him? No, I’m not desperate to keep him but I want him to know that at least, I tried my best to make him stay.
And the next question is, guys, what do you get in that position that you’ll leave a good relationship because of that? Does it go somewhere different from the same spot that missionary takes you? What’s the fuss all about?
